We all make mistakes and have regrets. I would say that we are all sinners, but frankly, I'm not entirely certain I believe in the concept of "sin" as such anymore, so I can't say that with any degree of earnestness.
I have a guilt complex...an extreme guilt complex. I'm not exactly sure where it came from - I have my suspicions - but suffice it to say that my guilt complex exists, and it is extreme. I tend to feel the weight of my mistakes and regrets a bit more intensely than other people, and I have fought my entire life for the ability to forgive myself and forget...or at least to move on.
But I am willing to admit my mistakes. I have seldom done anything maliciously, but mistakes and regrets are still mistakes and regrets, and I'm trying to accept them, forgive myself, make my amends, and move on.
This post is, therefore, an announcement to all those I've wronged during the course of my 30-some years on this earth. I feel a need to leave no business unfinished, and I'd like to take this opportunity to finish it.
If I have wronged you in any way, shape, or form, whether or not I'm aware of it, remember it, or have apologized insufficiently for it, please accept my wholehearted and sincere apology for anything I said, did, or didn't say or do. If this apology will not suffice and you'd like a more personal apology, please contact me, let me have it, and I will explain myself and apologize appropriately, as required.
More importantly, please know that the woman I am today is not the woman (hopefully!) who offended or hurt you, however I managed to accomplish that. I am growing, changing, developing, and finding my place in the real world, and BOY!, is it a struggle. That said, part of becoming better is recognizing your faults and converting them into newly-developed strengths. That is my goal, and I can assure you that I am driven to become more than I was.
Sorry, I was reading Caroline Myss's Anatomy of the Spirit last night, and just wanted to utilize this blog to help me finish up any unfinished business. :) All my best to you all! (And my apologies wherever they're owed!)
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